Can you HEAR me?

Happy Monday!!! Can You HEAR me??? Do you SEE me? Picture this, screaming into a pillow so no one can hear you. That’s what this picture illustrates. I had my first therapy appointment since being diagnosed with cancer. I feel like I find myself often screaming on the inside, so that no one will hear me. I don’t want judgment, or to be considered the broken wing friend. I’m tired. And I keep asking if there is still something wrong with me, since I see so many others feeling fine post chemo, and surgery. Why do they feel fine? Why am I tired. Why am I wanting to scream at the top of my lungs so now people will hear and see me? Did I suppress too much during the last 8-10 months? Did I try to be somebody I am not for the sake of others ? Was I afraid of being too dark, even though that’s how I was feeling? The weirdest part is a lot of times I feel nothing. I am a very emotionally expressive person- and lately I don’t even know HOW I feel. I want to be the best version of mys...