Mental health: cancer edition

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On to the important part, MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS: 

I look ‘FINE!’ I don’t LOOK sick! Cancer has stolen more things than I care to share. My Mental health is 💩But my personality HAS always been to be bubbly, smiley, LOUD, happy, KEEP GOING! But I don’t feel fine, I get anxious ALL the time. I don’t have cancer written on my forehead, so how will anyone know- that inside parts of me are dying??? Sometimes I want to scream I’m SICK! But I’m not sick. I never was ‘sick!’I HAD cancer, but I don’t anymore. Chemo made me feel sick, surgeries made me feel sick, but I was never ‘sick’ from cancer. I don’t write this to make anyone feel bad!  I have been through YEARS of trauma. Cancer has legit broken my family starting with my mom getting ovarian cancer and passing away (almost 8 years gone and sometimes it still feels like yesterday). Normally people come together and fight, but that didn’t happen in my case. I lost people because this is scary and heavy. Because life can throw more at us than we think we can handle. There were days, I begged to quit chemo. I thought I’d rather BE with my mom, that land sounded way more peaceful!! The point of this post is we are ALL mental health. There is NO picture or look that tells people what we are thinking or feeling. But this is REAL. And we all need to be way more aware as we are given this chance to DO more. I decided to do more with all my broken pieces from cancer. I love seeing others smile, even if it is masking their sadness, fear, anger, grief, etc for a mere second. We are here for a reason, and we just all have to come together and be mindful that we ALL have our traumas and Every one of us has our own story. JUST because one person’s trauma sounds worse, doesn’t mean you don’t have your own! If anyone needs a friend, PLEASE reach out! Love you guys! 🌻🌻#mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #smile #laughter #friendship #pain #nevergiveup #selflove #selfcare #instagram #viral #believe #mom #cancer #cancersucks #breastcancer #breastcancerawareness #giveaway



Love you all,


Signing off,


~Soulful Sunflower~ 🌻🌻


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