Chemo round 2✅





 Hi, it’s me Soulful Sunflower🌻 reporting to you after my second round of chemo. This week was wayyyy different than last. 

I’m still ok, still kicking :) I’m sorry for my delay as I know today is chemo day. I need to get a day on my list that I write no matter what. Sometimes, I just don’t even know what to say, or how to write because my mind is just not working or as sharp as it was. Chemo has so many weird effects and I honestly believe my survival mode is on, and it’s just seeking the end. 

After today I will have 9 treatments left. I do feel it is quite the countdown but I really just have to keep thinking a year from now, I’ll be cancer free, and have reduced my chances of getting this again. Sometimes it’s hard to see past the chemo day especially when you know chemo makes you feel like complete dog poop.


This last week was weird. And well, I thought I was dying😂😂 told you, first I’m a hypochondriac and second- I just haven’t experienced all of these things. I know what a well body feels like. Not one that breaks down and can’t even walk around the block! I use to lift weights, I use to walk 4+ miles a day, now I’m lucky if I walk for ten. Which is totally ruining my mental psyche, but I just keep looking forward and saying in one year- I will be completely past all of this❤️❤️


I experienced flu like symptoms. I was gagging, dripping in sweat, and when I mean dripping looked like my whole body had taken a shower and I didn’t towel dry. I was just dripping in sweat, and anyone close to me knows I don’t sweat- so of course dripping sweat would alarm me, and then I was red- my whole body got red and I was hot, and then I was freezing, and I couldn’t move my hands or my feet. Of course I was crying as throwing up is one of my greatest fears that causes most of my anxiety. That is due to what I remember my mom fight cancer was all the vomiting and it just triggers me. So for hours this went on, and I was panicked, and then it just stopped. It is so weird how our body’s react to chemo. 


I have started acupuncture and am hoping this may help with some of these side effects. I also plan to speak with my doctor this morning about all the things I might be able to do to combat this. My guess is one of the premeds really makes me sick. The annoying part is I took zofran two hours before I started dry heaving. Clearly I am a work in progress and hopefully by the end I’ll be a chemotherapy champ!!! My goal is just to remind everyone- check your breasts!!!! Especially if you have ANY history of breast cancer. I was able to get an Instagram influencer to share my story and I got to connect with other young women like myself!!! It seriously filled my love bucket to the top!!! I don’t want to be a pest, but cancer doesn’t discriminate on age, and I really hope that me telling everyone to advocate for their health and not wait until you find a lump, it’s so worth it!! 


I hope me sharing my side effects does not offend anyone, but being able to explain what chemo patients go through helps others navigate and not feel so alone. 


I have manifested that today will be a good day, it will be another chemo down, and one step closer to the end goal!! I love you ALL so much and am forever grateful! 


🌻Soulful Sunflower🌻

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