2 days until Covid isolation


 Hi, it’s me again.. Soulful Sunflower.. I guess I can just go ahead and explain the name. My mom, Phyllis, aka my soulmate... she passed away 7 years ago , and sunflowers were her favorite!! I now absolutely LOVE love love sunflowers. They brighten any room, and now everyone that knows me when they see sunflowers they send me pics. It’s basically my mom saying hello Jessie. Just like when I get front row parking, I say thanks MOM! 


Lately things have been really crazy for me. My dad and my step mom are driving out from Florida to help take care of me for the first surgery. They live in Florida and I live in Arizona. If anyone knows my dad, he is NOT a road trip kind of guy. So I can only imagine how that drive is going.. Oh yeah, flat tire two hours into the drive. OYE. I am really grateful they are coming as I have NO idea how long my recovery will be. 

Today I went to FedEx to ship stuff for work, and I was telling my favorite staff member that I am going out on medical leave and she cried, which then made me cry. But a stranger at FedEx overheard me telling her what is going on, so he bought me a piece of candy and told me he was sorry to hear about my mom, and that he wished me luck on my upcoming surgery. (Gave me the goosebumps) . Once again, HI mom. Thank you, to that stranger if he were to ever read this!! 🌻 it really meant a lot to me. 

I used to find myself saying that people really disappoint me and let me down, but I swear strangers can do the smallest thing and it changes my attitude sO fast. Since moving to Tucson, and finding my core friends, I find myself let down a whole lot less. I don’t feel like my expectations changed, I just feel and truly believe I manifested better for myself and the people that have stayed around, are because we are a true partnership/friendship. 

Today I found myself less anxious, so I consider today to be a good day. I find myself focused on work, but also mindful of my mind and body. I want to go into this Entire situation as positive as I possibly can, as I am facing up to 3 total surgeries. So no jumping ship now. First surgery is a breast reduction/lift and mass removal. This is because my breasts are not positioned in a place to save my nipples, and I would like to try to save them. Second surgery will be the double mastectomy itself, and the third is all up in the air if I get expanders put in. I won’t lie, this is all foreign to me.. so I just go with whatever they tell me. If I explain it wrong, it is because I am not a doctor and sometimes a bad listener if I feel overwhelmed 😂

 On a positive note, I have had people from high school, family friends, people who don’t really know me, to complete strangers offering to bring me stuff or do this, or do that, and I am just so honored people have taken the time to reach out to me, and offer any way they can to take stress off me. I mean, no one OWES me anything. It truly is just incredible how life works sometimes, even when you get the sourest lemon. Thank you to everyone and anyone that has read this or reading this and following my emotional journey. It means a lot. ❤️

To close out this day, I just want to say keep manifesting. I have manifested for good people to surround me, and I have some of the best co-workers, the best friends and family a girl could ask for. I am grateful for the opportunity to share my journey. I feel right on track where I should be. I am ready to tackle this day by day, moment by moment. We are ALL warriors !


Yours truly,


Soulful Sunflower🌻

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