Soulful Sunflower

  Hi guys! It’s me SoulFul Sunflower🌻 This week has been Hanukkah and I wanted to do something fun for the family and so we all got t-shirts! So far doing small projects here and there is one thing that keeps my spirits up, but it also helps me focus on something other than chemo. Lots of times I find that I’m exhausted really easily, part of that is because the insomnia is real. I already was a bad sleeper, but chemo/steroids takes your sleep to a whole other level.  This week wasn’t so bad, I tend to feel pretty crappy when I get home from chemo but not crappy enough to not eat LOL. So I’m typically pretty starving. I then don’t sleep at all because I’m wired from sitting in a chair for 6 hours freezing. Then Wednesday I try to do something even if just a walk around the block- as you may not know- I don’t like the SUN at all, I’m terrified of it, but now with chemo it makes you burn pretty quickly. So I try to go when there is NO sun. Or less sun. By Friday I feel ok, a ti...

 Hi guys! It’s me Soulful Sunflower🌻 I’m trying to get ahead so I can write more.. but since I kind of just write to write and explain and share, it takes me longer than I thought. To be quite honest chemo brain is very real, but it’s more like cancer brain. Once you hear you have cancer, and you’re going to have your life stopped so you can get treated, you hear nothing else for a bit. I guess for someone who hasn’t experienced a life changing event I’d say it’s like a fog.. really foggy. And it lasts for as long you let it!! I try to get back in a groove. Get up, do 30 minutes of exercise, and then if I lay in bed all day I’m not too upset.  But after 3rd chemo I’m still doing ok. I want to share more about hair. I don’t know what hair means to everyone but I’d love for people to share or comment on my blog and tell me what their hair means to them. Do you like your hair? Do you style your hair? Color it? Keep it short? Love it long, is it thick? Circle? Straight? Do you us...

 Hi, it’s me Soulful Sunflower🌻 reporting to you after my second round of chemo. This week was wayyyy different than last.  I’m still ok, still kicking :) I’m sorry for my delay as I know today is chemo day. I need to get a day on my list that I write no matter what. Sometimes, I just don’t even know what to say, or how to write because my mind is just not working or as sharp as it was. Chemo has so many weird effects and I honestly believe my survival mode is on, and it’s just seeking the end.  After today I will have 9 treatments left. I do feel it is quite the countdown but I really just have to keep thinking a year from now, I’ll be cancer free, and have reduced my chances of getting this again. Sometimes it’s hard to see past the chemo day especially when you know chemo makes you feel like complete dog poop. This last week was weird. And well, I thought I was dying😂😂 told you, first I’m a hypochondriac and second- I just haven’t experienced all of these things. I ...