Soulful Sunflower

 Hi, it’s me soulful sunflower 🌻 I am going to try posting more frequently after chemo, but I needed some time.  To begin, I walked into that chemo room, ANXIOUS. I had NO idea what to expect. To be honest, I felt like I was going to the death room. It’s not fair to say, but my PTSD from my mom, that’s what I view the chemo room as. It just scares me.. not to go down a rabbit hole. Just to share what I think. I got there. My dad was able to help me get my cold cap on! Thank GOD🙏🏻 He couldn’t stay which sucks a lot for us both, but he could help me feel confident in getting the cap on. I used Paxman cold capping. If anyone has any questions, please feel free to reach out. I had to wet my scalp entirely then put conditioner on, as the caps basically freeze to your head. My success rate is about 75%. I’m going to really push myself to wear these caps as long as I possibly can stand- I know this sounds negative but I’ve been miserable the last 6 weeks between dog bites, and sur...

 Hi everyone! It’s me Soulful Sunflower😘🌻 Port placement was rough... and still doesn’t feel good, but better than blowing out my veins weekly.  This last surgery took 3 tries to put my IV in. So the port makes it a lot easier for weekly chemo treatments and IV therapy.  Posted a pic of my baby, for some cuteness during these times❤️❤️💕 Today I want to share what I am packing with me to my first chemo. I also want to share brands that I’ve done research on that I am allowed to use for chemotherapy. I never really thought about if something had ingredients in it, it would effect chemotherapy. So I have done quite a bit of research on chemotherapy safe products.  Things I am bringing to chemo: 1. Obviously me and my dad (thank goodness for family and one visitor)  2. Chemo bag with tons of snacks, warm clothes, technology and books (will share books as I read them:)) it will last about 4 hours of chemo then I need to wear the cold caps for about 3 hours after c...

 Hi everyone, Team Fishman!!! 💕💕 It’s me, soulful sunflower 🌻I’m sorry I haven’t been updating the blog as I have just had a very heavy heart. First off, thank you to everyone who has read and shared my story. I hope to support as best as I can  with breast cancer awareness!  I clearly did everything I was told to do and if I hadn’t I wouldn’t be writing a blog.  So let’s start with boundaries. I have created boundaries, not to offend people but to protect myself. I feel as though maybe my surgery was downplayed a bit and people didn’t fully believe why I was doing the surgery etc. or why I am now doing chemotherapy since technically the masses have been removed. .to be honest it doesn’t matter what people think or didn’t think. I had to make the best decision for me.  I decided to quiet the noise and follow my gut. My gut was telling me it was time to start the breast removal process. And if I hadn’t done what I did, I wouldn’t have apositive outcome. So for...