Believe

 Hi everyone,


Team Fishman!!! 💕💕

It’s me, soulful sunflower 🌻I’m sorry I haven’t been updating the blog as I have just had a very heavy heart.

First off, thank you to everyone who has read and shared my story. I hope to support as best as I can  with breast cancer awareness!  I clearly did everything I was told to do and if I hadn’t I wouldn’t be writing a blog. 

So let’s start with boundaries. I have created boundaries, not to offend people but to protect myself. I feel as though maybe my surgery was downplayed a bit and people didn’t fully believe why I was doing the surgery etc. or why I am now doing chemotherapy since technically the masses have been removed. .to be honest it doesn’t matter what people think or didn’t think. I had to make the best decision for me.  I decided to quiet the noise and follow my gut. My gut was telling me it was time to start the breast removal process. And if I hadn’t done what I did, I wouldn’t have apositive outcome. So for anyone asking me why I went this route, I decided it was time, with a gut feeling and I just pushed to start the surgeries ASAP. I advocated for myself, so if you have any gut feeling or want more testing, it is so crucial. 


Ok back to the boundaries. I love people wanting to come see me and hang with me. I’m an extrovert and due to covid and me about to go through chemo I have felt like I need to extra isolate. Which is so tough. I have rough 12 weeks of chemo. Which feels like the longest 3 months of my life. But I am trying to maneuver through cold and flu season and covid and chemotherapy but yet see people who love me and care about me. I also know that I need to try to live and normalize my life because my mental health needs it. All of this has put me in this fog that I can’t seem to lift. Don’t worry, finding the right team and working through this. Ultimately I’m dazed and confused half the time, but I wanted to share the good news as my cancer has not spread to my lymph nodes!! Therefore, I am stage 1 breast cancer triple negative. This whole thing is scary but I do feel blessed to have the best of friends coming to visit me and spend time with me, thank you Katie for driving out from Colorado and spending time with me!!! Just like the Good ole days!!!! And a HUGE thanks to Ann and my dad for spending so much time to help support me through all of this!! 


So much love to you all!!😘🌻


~Soulful Sunflower 





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